The Sanborns

Dentist Part Two from Becca Sanborn on Vimeo.

After the dentist… from Becca Sanborn on Vimeo.

I’ve been taking pictures, but I’ve been such a slacker about sharing them… hmm let’s play catch up, shall we? Click through to learn more, there are far too many pictures for me to describe them all, again. Some may be out of order because I keep uploading several in one day.

Wow, it’s been longer than I thought.

I’m officially on spring break from school, although I still have two days of work to go, but no studying makes all the difference! We signed the lease on the new apartment yesterday and took the first few boxes over. Already I am feeling down. The bedrooms and bathroom are smaller than I realized, but I guess it will be good to downsize some things, however not fitting the furniture in the room? Yeah, not entirely happy that I can only put the bedroom in one arrangement.

Regardless, I’m amazed by how much I think we’ll enjoy the new place. Renting has ups and downs but knowing that we won’t have anyone above us is awesome… not to mention that the apartment below is not always full of people, such a plus. I will definitely post some pictures when I have the time to take some, so probably this weekend.

On another note, I was thinking about jealousy today. I get jealous when I feel that other people have things I want: more money, a salaried job, babies, getting to hang out with their friends because they work with them, living in a house they own, getting to have a puppy… the list could go on and on. I have a hard time accepting the fact that the way my life is sometimes. Don’t get me wrong, I love my life, but I am not where I want to be just yet. I’d love to be out of school and working because I’m ready for a full-time job. I’m ready to move into a house and start a family with Gray. I’m just ready for more, but of course, we have to do all these steps. We need real, full-time jobs to afford a house or a baby or both. When I finally get that job, I know I won’t be perfectly happy, because I’ve had a full-time job before that I hated. I’m just ready to be through this school stage of life. I know I am where God wants me to be, but I’m just ready to move on with life.

I guess what I am getting at, is that we all want things that we don’t get to have at the moment. It’s hard to be satisfied, knowing that you desire something so strongly. All I know is that despite what I want, God knows exactly what I need, and if I truly needed it right then, I would have it. It’s all about timing, and God’s timing is perfect. Want to make God laugh, tell him your plans for yourself. No matter how great we thinks our plans are, his are always better in the end. Always.

So while I don’t get to see my friends nearly enough and I suck at keeping in touch with them, I have friends, and that’s awesome. I have a roof over my head, even if it’s not the house I want… and I have family, even though it doesn’t include my own children yet. It’s like the Robert Frost poem, “The Road Not Taken.” It’s one of my favorites. I took a path that most people don’t take, but in the end, it will make all the difference.

Vloggin from Becca Sanborn on Vimeo.

So um, we’re moving in less than a week and I have a few tests this week, so next time you hear from me, I’ll be in my new place, hooray!

Today I am over at our review blog. Any guys, sorry but I’m reviewing a menstrual cup, go forth and read only if you’re comfortable.

I’m going to be posting more reviews over the next few weeks.

I need:
- some married friends to hang out with. We don’t even have dating friends, and well, it’s no fun being at home every weekend!)
- my current friends to stop moving away from me! (I’ve had dreams of Trina moving away from me, DREAMS!!!)
- a life outside of school.

I feel:
- sad over the fact that my uncle is dying.
- overwhelmed
- like crying

I am:
- hating this stage of life
- tired of not losing any weight and staying at this plateau in the 140s (overweight for my age/height)
- blah

I don’t like change and I’m trying to process a lot of it right now. I need something new, an adventure!

I am so stressed out right now. I finished my Patho podcast, only to realize it cut off before the last chapter. This was a pocast the professor put up, so I’m screwed and have to teach myself the chapter. The test is on Monday and I think it’s so unfair that we still have the test, even though we missed another class this past Monday due to snow. She flew through the material in the hour we met, but it was 3 hours worth of material in 1, not cool.

I also didn’t have study group this week because no one could come and I’m super stressed about not doing well since I’ve discovered study group helps me so much.

Add to the stress of making sure we have enough money to pay for my dental fillings in March AND save back enough money to live in April thanks to losing $400 from our paycheck. I guess there goes our vacation fund unless something else happens… I just want a vacation, we finally paid off credit card debt and have money for a change!

So yeah, emotional vomiting going on right now, I think it’s time to go study some more. I need to just give all of this over to God.