The Sanborns

I’ve been hesitant to mention my upcoming job interview on here for a few days now. I’ve been job hunting since December and have been very frustrated with the process so far. I’ve been on interviews, only to have my heart set on a job. Then a few weeks later, I find out I didn’t get it.

The job I’m interviewing for is a legal assistant job for a law firm in Nashville. I actually have an old friend from high school, who works there already, that referred me. If I get the job, it will be a huge relief for our little family. We’re not starving, but finances have been tight since we got married. It seems that once we got married, the universe decided to dump a bucket of “hate” on us.

The job is not in my dream career, but I’ve been told they are OK with me being in transition. There are many thoughts of where I might go in the next few years. Gray is going to graduate in 2009, next year, and we’re not sure where his career will take us. Since his career will pay more money (and mine can be anywhere) we’ll probably move where he gets a job.

This entire process has been most frustrating for me because I am a very controlling person, at least with my future. I want a job and I want it when is convenient for me. I’ve been fighting with God over this for the past seven months. I haven’t gotten to a point where I don’t have money to pay the bills, and perhaps that is what God is trying to teach me.

Religion is something I dislike greatly. You will not hear me “blog” about it much at all. You see, I was brought up in religion and I came to realize that people are corrupt and make religion a set of rules… something I never liked. When I was in high school, I became aware of this and left my parent’s church for some time. I now attend a church that is very freeing and open. We like it. After all, we’re followers of Christ and his teachings, not a set of rules from a group of people. People are not perfect and we shouldn’t expect them to be.

So on Monday, I will go to this interview and figure out if this is the next step I am supposed to make in life. I hope so, because my birthday is in less than a month and I already told Gray I’m expecting an ice cream cake…