Thoughts on a New Chapter
Where did the summer go? On Monday Gray and I return to school and work in a new semester. I’m not sure how I feel about returning again. My classes are as follows: Intro to Accounting, Microbiology w/lab, Women’s Studies, Professionalism in Nursing, and Pilates. I will be applying to nursing school at MTSU this fall and I hope to gain admission.
We went to campus today so I could print off my schedules at the lab. I looked at Cummings Hall, the dormitory I first lived in on campus, and found it pretty deserted for opening day. However, it was raining when we went. It’s so weird to think that six years ago I was a freshman on this very campus and I had not yet met the people I consider to my best friends. How far I have come in those six years… I have a degree in Communication and I’m now married. It’s surreal.
I was printing off my schedule when a new student asked how to use the printers. I felt myself smiling as I told him how and realized how often I will hear that question in the coming weeks. I can only hope my patience holds out as I explain again and again how to use the software.
There have been some changes in our lives the past week, changes I won’t talk about until official, but let’s just say that God is in control and he knows where we are meant to serve him and is making possible these changes. We have been asked to serve at church in different way than I ever expected to, more details on that once I’ve experienced the change.
In many ways I feel as though I am a freshman once again because I’m going through school and I don’t really know many people in my classes. I’m not afraid of the new semester, just curious to see how it all works out. I’m a perfectionist and with that comes fear that I can’t make everything perfect.
I look forward to Monday as it brings a new chapter in my life, one that I have been resisting because it didn’t make sense to go in that direction.
Well, that direction, although scary, is precisely where I need to be, right now.
I’m fully OK with being uncertain because I know it’s where I’m supposed to be.
I hope everything goes well for you -sounds like you have the right attitude for dealing with it!