The Sanborns

After the dentist… from Becca Sanborn on Vimeo.

Wow, it’s been longer than I thought.

I’m officially on spring break from school, although I still have two days of work to go, but no studying makes all the difference! We signed the lease on the new apartment yesterday and took the first few boxes over. Already I am feeling down. The bedrooms and bathroom are smaller than I realized, but I guess it will be good to downsize some things, however not fitting the furniture in the room? Yeah, not entirely happy that I can only put the bedroom in one arrangement.

Regardless, I’m amazed by how much I think we’ll enjoy the new place. Renting has ups and downs but knowing that we won’t have anyone above us is awesome… not to mention that the apartment below is not always full of people, such a plus. I will definitely post some pictures when I have the time to take some, so probably this weekend.

On another note, I was thinking about jealousy today. I get jealous when I feel that other people have things I want: more money, a salaried job, babies, getting to hang out with their friends because they work with them, living in a house they own, getting to have a puppy… the list could go on and on. I have a hard time accepting the fact that the way my life is sometimes. Don’t get me wrong, I love my life, but I am not where I want to be just yet. I’d love to be out of school and working because I’m ready for a full-time job. I’m ready to move into a house and start a family with Gray. I’m just ready for more, but of course, we have to do all these steps. We need real, full-time jobs to afford a house or a baby or both. When I finally get that job, I know I won’t be perfectly happy, because I’ve had a full-time job before that I hated. I’m just ready to be through this school stage of life. I know I am where God wants me to be, but I’m just ready to move on with life.

I guess what I am getting at, is that we all want things that we don’t get to have at the moment. It’s hard to be satisfied, knowing that you desire something so strongly. All I know is that despite what I want, God knows exactly what I need, and if I truly needed it right then, I would have it. It’s all about timing, and God’s timing is perfect. Want to make God laugh, tell him your plans for yourself. No matter how great we thinks our plans are, his are always better in the end. Always.

So while I don’t get to see my friends nearly enough and I suck at keeping in touch with them, I have friends, and that’s awesome. I have a roof over my head, even if it’s not the house I want… and I have family, even though it doesn’t include my own children yet. It’s like the Robert Frost poem, “The Road Not Taken.” It’s one of my favorites. I took a path that most people don’t take, but in the end, it will make all the difference.

Vloggin from Becca Sanborn on Vimeo.

So um, we’re moving in less than a week and I have a few tests this week, so next time you hear from me, I’ll be in my new place, hooray!

I need:
- some married friends to hang out with. We don’t even have dating friends, and well, it’s no fun being at home every weekend!)
- my current friends to stop moving away from me! (I’ve had dreams of Trina moving away from me, DREAMS!!!)
- a life outside of school.

I feel:
- sad over the fact that my uncle is dying.
- overwhelmed
- like crying

I am:
- hating this stage of life
- tired of not losing any weight and staying at this plateau in the 140s (overweight for my age/height)
- blah

I don’t like change and I’m trying to process a lot of it right now. I need something new, an adventure!

The writing around here has been sort of crappy lately. I find myself rushed into finding topics and then just ramble.

Last night I watched the Olympics. I was heartbroken to discovered that the opening ceremony had not even begun and already, a life had been lost.

It really made me think, every day has to be lived to its fullest, you never know when you are going to die.

This leads me to Valentine’s Day as well. I’m thankful that I have a husband to share the holiday with, but I really dislike the holiday itself. Why should one day dictate how you say “I love you?” Shouldn’t we tell this to our significant others daily? How about family or friends? Honestly, Gray and I have been setting aside time each month for a date night and once V-Day came around, it was more of a so what ordeal. We did/do have plans, but we would have done these plans, regardless of the holiday.

The murder mystery dinner we went to was our dinner out and it was such a great deal! This weekend we will be catching the movie Valentine’s Day and I did get chocolate. However, I really don’t feel like this is much different from the usual. We end up seeing a movie each month and do dinner out. The only thing different was V-Day candy that was super expensive.

Anyway, back to the 21 year old Georgian who died…. he was living his dream and had an unfortunate accident. I was thankful last night that I could spend this holiday (even if I don’t agree with it) with my husband, who is alive.

I am very thankful for what I have, although I don’t have everything I want, I can live with out those things.

If I were single, I would go out and have fun with some friends or my family. You don’t need a man/woman in your life to celebrate the love you have for others.

So, what are your plans for the big V-Day?

For Valentine’s, Gray and I went to a murder mystery dinner theatre event on campus last night. It was $10 for the two of us and the food and entertainment was great. BEST VALENTINE’S EVER.

Anyway… I’m not going to say much about it, but here are some pictures I took.

Oh Edmond…

Rosie, Trixie, and Dixie… probably not in that order.

You can’t see very well, but Gray was chosen to be Rosie’s personal assistant.

Edmond and Trixie.

One of the men at our table was chosen to be the detective so he had a big role.

Close up of the detective.

Finale!

We had a lot of fun, and I half-solved the mystery. I can’t wait to do more dinner theatre shows!

Finally, two videos of Gray’s role in the show.

So, my friends and I do a lot of murder mysteries, a lot.

It all started in the Fall of 2007 when Trina and I were at Wally World. We stumbled upon a box for a game called Murder on the Grill. I had heard of murder mysteries before and I always wanted to do one, so we set out to try one for ourselves.

Murder on the Grill: character Bobby Sox.

We liked that one a lot, but completely forgot about murder mysteries until the following summer when mine and Chad’s birthdays came around. Trina and Gray decided to surprise me with a murder mystery and it was so much fun! This time it was ‘Murder on Misty Island’ and I chose to be a housewife.

Another year went by before we did another murder mystery, this time it was the following summer and our friend Justin asked to do another one when he came to visit. So we did ‘The Chicago Caper.’

I played Silky M.Adam, a well, madame. This was a different series than we had done before and I liked it because the killer didn’t know who they were until it was revealed at the end… making it much harder to figure out.

After that mystery I really wanted to do another one and this time, a Halloween mystery.

This time I was Lizzie Bordeaux, engaged to the deceased and I had a pet spider, who Chile lovingly stepped in for.
This was the first time I actually solved who the killer was out of the games so far.

Tonight I will be playing Bameril Lacrosse, a Portguese chef with his own TV show! I’m quirky and well, you’ll find out. Tonight’s theme is a masquerade ball so I will be donning a suit and I’m glad because it’s really cold outside!

I will post some pictures from tonight sometime this week. Oh and did I mention I’m planning another one of these for April for a Trina/Jami birthday party?

Also: Trina took all the above pictures..

I came out of this week feeling like a failure. I made a C- on my nursing test, which is really a D on their scale, but I’m calling it a C- because in the normal grade scale, that’s what it is! However, it’s not considered passing for Nursing school. sigh.

I’ve had a lot on my mind this week and haven’t been able to put anything into words. The private post (which btw, you guys can ask for the pw if you want to read, if I didn’t want anybody reading it, I would have made it private. I just wanted better control over who read it.) helped me a lot, but I’m still struggling in some areas.

I’ve lost some weight this week. Not a significant amount, but a little bit and that’s comforting to me. Nursing school makes it impossible to eat a balanced diet, but I’m trying to spread snacks throughout the day so I’m not starving in lectures.

I went to the dentist Tuesday afternoon and got some surprising news. This is a new dentist for our family and I really enjoyed the experience. The staff were all nice and caring and I knew they weren’t trying to rip me off. I didn’t exactly have that issue with the one I went to in December, it’s just that my insurance doesn’t cover them.

Immediately there were big differences between the two dentists. My new dentist office makes me feel like a queen. They take care of you down to the little details. It was so nice. They also informed me that I will not be getting my wisdom teeth out anytime soon. Apparently the way the bottom tooth is growing it will be very hard to take out and so unless it starts bothering me, they won’t be removing anything. I will be having fillings in March, during my spring break. Two days of torture, hmm.

Aside from all of this mess was the snow storm. We got quite a bit for TN and ended up getting out of school/work. At first I was excited, but then I realized that Gray and I lost $100 total from our paychecks which is not really good when you have limited income anyway. Luckily, it looks as though we will both be very close to 80 hours so it shouldn’t affect too much. It was just extra income we lost, which would have been nice, but at least it’s not horrible.

Speaking of money, we will (hopefully) be meeting a goal of ours in a few weeks and I will be very excited when it happens. Until then, we are going to enjoy the weekend, which includes a murder mystery party, yahoo!

So, since tomorrow is my first day back to classes and I know that my posts will probably decline severely, I am going to share with you some videos I’ve taken over the past month or two… I know you’re excited.

Snow on Christmas Day! from Becca Sanborn on Vimeo.

This is from Christmas day and I warn you, I am very loud and excited.

Gray from Becca Sanborn on Vimeo.

This was the day Gray ordered his new desktop computers parts (he built his own computer). He was stroking the screen with happiness but did not comply with my videotaping.

Chile meets Spit from Becca Sanborn on Vimeo.

This video is hilarious to me. I don’t think you see it at the end, but the cat heard Grady hiss and thought it was Chile and totally ran off to the side. Chile the cat killer!